Monday 14 March 2016

One Last Blog Post


On April 24th, 2015 my Dad wrote his first blog entry documenting his diagnosis and subsequent battle with pancreatic cancer. On March 4th, 2016, he published what would be the last installment in a remarkable series of works. My father was an optimistic and data-driven individual, and the approach with this final installment is an attempt to service both of these fine qualities he so consistently exemplified in his daily life.
Four days on the 16th floor of VGH in Palliative Care don’t hold a candle next to 315 days of blogging, 52 posts, and 35,000 page views. These numbers, in turn, pale in comparison to 33 years of marriage, 31 years of fatherhood, and 65 years of an extraordinary life.
For those of you who have followed his writing, you already know that Hugh used this blog as a means of catharsis, a creative therapeutic approach to a daunting situation, and a pragmatic means to expedite the process of keeping his community informed. 
You know that he used humor to communicate his well-being, once joking that an unforeseen benefit of chemotherapy was that no bug bite went unpunished -- mosquitoes attempting to dine and dash succumbed to acute chemo toxicity, never making it past the perimeter of the patio.
You know that he quickly tired of explaining the status of his illness and treatment, and that he drew immense satisfaction by cutting such interactions short with three simple words: read the blog.
You know what a keen insight these entries offer into the life, mind, and soul of Hugh Tildesley: film, theater and book reviews in the Art’s Report, technology discussions in Tesla Titillations, Rants on topics ranging from Translink to federal elections to water restriction policies, expressions of his deep affection for The 5 o’clock Club (which he describes as “a witty, pseudo-intellectual denouement to the day”), FAQ headings such as “How are you feeling?” and “Do your cats and dog know you’re sick?”, Trivia like “What do the Beach Boys, Elon Musk and the Wright Brothers have in common?” (For the answer, you guessed it, read the blog). 
You might even know that his favorite course at Bandon Dunes was Old MacDonald, despite the unrelenting wind.  
What you may not know is the profound strength this readership gave him. Tens of thousands of page views were more than fodder for bragging rights, they were a reflection of the support he felt from each and every one of you… his friends and family, his colleagues and peers, his students, his patients, and all the people he inspired along the way.
Whether you’ve read the blog or not, these entries offer a way to feel close to Hugh. I couldn’t adequately summarize his words, even if I tried, but one quote strikes me as salient enough to repeat. In describing the fearless Bruins left winger Stan Jonathan, Don Cherry said something along the lines of, “it’s like ‘tis. When yeah gots a guy like Jonatan, everybody plays bigger.”
My Dad would want everyone to know that their support was felt, and to the many people he held dear, he’d say:“I play bigger with these guys at my back.”


A Celebration of the Life of Hugh Tildesley
Tuesday, March 22nd

4:00pm

Point Grey Golf Club


Love from,
Deborah, Donovan, Hamish and Catherine Tildesley



Friday 4 March 2016

I need some Sun



Dr. Hugh Tildesley
Status update: Weight and blood work remain stable, save for a jump in the tumour marker CA-19. Again this does correlate with my clinical course, and may reflect the extra 2 weeks off the poisons because of my low white count. It will require close observation.




Tesla Titillations: I got another new car last night. Autopilot has been further tweaked with constant reminders to keep hands on the wheel, automatic slowing when you have your blinker on as you approach an exit, to make ramp speeds more safe, and on my most recent trip down Dunbar the car told me that autopilot was not supported (I suspect due to the narrowness of the lane as a result of the ever under utilized bike lanes.

I am still trying to get it to back into the garage, some how the computer visualizes my garage 25 degrees off its true angle. I have some corrective theories being tested.

The latest is a function called “Summons”; in tight spots you can move the care forward and backward using your iPhone. Works like a charm, but at my weight it is relegated to “show off” stuff.

Arts Report:

Chris Rock
The Oscars in my view were flawless, Chris Rock was brilliant. I was a little uncomfortable with the lynching and rape line, not even Bob Hope would have gotten away with it, but a black man dressed in black and white did. The predominately white audience laughing was what I think made me really uncomfortable. The show was tight; most winners had their speeches memorized and rarely went over time. A pleasant change from the Gong show, which was the Golden Globes.

The family quiz was won by Catherine with a ridiculous score, followed by her beau, Andrew, who I think lost on purpose. He has been nicknamed “Prince”, after Prince Andrew, but he is a prince of a fellow.

The son with the film degree was well down in the scoring, barely beating his parents, and his blind brother who never saw any of the films. Naturally the senile academy is to blame for us not picking the winners!

Dark Money: Jane Mayer

As the US election heats up, this book casts a frightening insights on how a small cadre of billionaires have utilized lax trust laws to disguise millions of dollars of political donations that are virtually untraceable. It makes one easily understand how Obama was blocked at almost every legislative initiative, and how the GOP has lost touch with its constituents. When taken into perspective the American people are not stupid and the publication of this information feeds Mr. Trump.

Clinton Cash: Peter Schweitzer

The Democrats are no better. This book outlines the tag team, which is Bill and Hillary, again using trusts as a shield to billions, which have gone into The Clinton Foundation. This is some of the most sophisticated use of political power to gain wealth.

Canada has strict laws now, which monitor charitable organizations and political donations. The US needs to copy us!


Weather Blues: El Nino is winning; I am looking forward to some sun. We leave shortly for Arizona, visiting friends, some golf, some touring and watching nephew, Liam, in an upcoming tournament in Tucson. No rain in the forecast.

The next blog will likely be a travel log, hopefully more pictures than words.

Until next time….

Saturday 27 February 2016

The Oscars



 
 2016 Academy Awards


Some important information:

Day: Oscar Sunday
Date: February 28, 2016
Red Carpet Start Time: 7pm Eastern Time|4pm Pacific Time
Ceremony Start Time: 8:30pm Eastern Time|5:30pm Pacific Time
Network: ABC

As promised my picks at the end of the blog


Instructions:

Please underline your selection in each section, save the changes to the document and send to your friends with whom you may be betting.


Best Picture

The Big Short
Bridge of Spies
Brooklyn
Mad Max: Fury Road
The Martian
The Revenant
Room
Spotlight



Director

Lenny Abrahamson: Room
Alejandro G. Inarritu: The Revenant
Adam McKay: The Big Short
Tom McCarthy: Spotlight
George Miller: Mad Max: Fury Road



Actor in a Leading Role

Bryan Cranston: Trumbo
Matt Damon: The Martian
Leonardo DiCaprio: The Revenant
Michael Fassbender: Steve Jobs
Eddie Redmayne: The Danish Girl


Actress in a Leading Role

Cate Blanchett: Carol
Brie Larson: Room
Jennifer Lawrence: Joy
Charlotte Rampling: 45 Years
Saoirse Ronan: Brooklyn




Actor in a Supporting Role

Christian Bale: The Big Short
Tom Hardy: The Revenant
Mark Ruffalo: Spotlight
Marky Rylance: Bridge of Spies
Sylvester Stallone: Creed




Actress in a Supporting Role

Jennifer Jason Leigh: The Hateful Eight
Rooney Mara: Carol
Rachel McAdams: Spotlight
Alicia Vikander: The Danish Girl
Kate WInslet: Steve Jobs




Original Screenplay

Bridge of Spies
Ex Machina
Inside Out
Spotlight
Straight Outta Compton




Adapted Screenplay

The Big Short
Brooklyn
Carol
The Martian
Room




Foreign Language Film

Embrace of the Serpent
Mustang
Son of Saul
Theeb
A War




Sound Editing

Mad Max: Fury Road
The Martian
The Revenant
Sicario
Star Wars: The Force Awakens




Visual Effects

Ex Machina
Mad Max: Fury Road
The Martian
The Revenant
Star Wars: The Force Awakens



Film Editing

Mad Max: Fury Road
The Revenant
Spotlight
The Big Short
Star Wars: The Force Awakens




Short Film, Animated

Bear Story (Historia de Uno Oso)
Prologue
Sanjay’s Super Team
We Can’t Live Without Cosmos
World of Tomorrow




Short Film, Live Action

Ave Maria
Day One
Everything Will Be Okay
Shok
Stutterer




Documentary Short Subject

Body Team 12
Chau, Beyond the Lines
Claude Lanzmann: Spectres of Shoah
A Girl in the River: The Price of Forgiveness
Last Day of Freedom


Original Score

Bridge of Spies
Carol
The Hateful Eight
Sicario
Star Wars: The Force Awakens




Original Song

The Hunting Ground
Fifty Shades of Grey
Racing Extinction
Spectre
Youth




Production Design

Mad Max: Fury Road
The Danish Girl
Bridge of Spies
The Revenant
The Martian




Cinematography

Carol
The Hateful Eight
Mad Max: Fury Road
The Revenant
Sicario




Costume Design

Cinderalla
Carol
The Danish Girl
The Revenant
Mad Max: Fury Road




Makeup

Mad Max: Fury Road
The Revenant
The 100-Year-Old Man




Documentary Feature

Amy
Cartel Land
The Look of Silence
What Happened, Miss Simone?
Winter on Fire




Sound Mixing

Bridge of Spies
Mad Max: Fury Road
The Martian
The Revenant
Star Wars: The Force Awakens




Our family traditionally watch the telecast with a lot of kibitzing about who should win and why. This year Catherine is the score keeper in Edmonton, Hamish is the favorite for bragging rights in LA, Donovan, Deborah and I will be enjoying snacks at home in Vancouver.

Prior to the broadcast I will add to this post my predictions, as you know I am still reeling from my pathetic showing in the Federal election, but remain ever optimistic with my movie observations. I take solace in that I share the same demographic as the the Academy!

My Picks ( note prior to the Awards, posted at 4:52 PT)


2016 Academy Awards

My Predictions

Best Picture
The Revenant

Director
Alejandro G. Inarritu: The Revenant

Actor in a Leading Role
Eddie Redmayne: The Danish Girl


Actress in a Leading Role
Brie Larson: Room


Actor in a Supporting Role
Sylvester Stallone: Creed


Actress in a Supporting Role
Kate WInslet: Steve Jobs


Original Screenplay
Bridge of Spies


Adapted Screenplay
Brooklyn




Foreign Language Film
Son of Saul


Sound Editing
Mad Max: Fury Road


Visual Effects
Star Wars: The Force Awakens

Film Editing
The Revenant


Short Film, Animated
World of Tomorrow


Short Film, Live Action
Shok


Documentary Short Subject
A Girl in the River: The Price of Forgiveness

Original Score
The Hateful Eight


Original Song
The Hunting Ground


Production Design
The Danish Girl


Cinematography
The Revenant


Costume Design
The Danish Girl


Makeup
The Revenant


Documentary Feature
Amy


Sound Mixing
The Revenant




Until next time........

Thursday 25 February 2016

Some frequently Aked Questions


Status Report:

Dr. Hugh Tildesley
The most recent blood work showed a complete reversal of the low White count, which is now back to baseline. This means we can go ahead with the poisons next week. Additional good news is that my weight has remained stable, as has my energy level.



I walked 18 holes on Monday, at Shaughnessy,score was unfortunate but my host, Dr. Ted Wilkins,was as always gracious.While on the 10th hole one of the pros, Vaughn Marshall,made a point of coming out to great me. He knows my story and wanted to say hello, I was needless to say touched. When I first took up golf Vaughn worked at UBC, we had a regular game at dawn every Sunday, Bill Vlahos, my late colleague, was a regular as was Dave Riddle and Jean Cormier,very fond memories.

16 th at Point Grey
On Wednesday I walked Point Grey, 2 games in 3 days. Score of 88 respectable.








Travel: The trip to Arizona is taking shape, a few days in Scottsdale, then a sojourn to Sedona, followed by an overnight at the Grand Canyon. We then travel back to Phoenix, for a few nights, then on to Tucson to watch nephew Liam in a baseball tournament.

We had always wanted to go to the Canyon and some extra time on this trip gave us the flexibility. A serendipitous check of the bucket list!

Some questions about travel?

Insurance:

What do you do about insurance? Initially I thought I had to self-insure, but in fact BCAA has a plan which I thought was quite fair. For pre existing conditions I am insured for up to $200.K, for non- pre-existing up to $ 10 Million. The coverage is up to 15 days, for 1 year, irrespective of how many trips we take. My premium was about $950.00, Deborah’s about $300.

I manage my travel based on my proximity to recent chemotherapy, optimally I should be at least 2 weeks removed so my immunity is less compromised.

Minimizing the exchange hit:

Quite a learning process. The best way is to get a charge card in US funds, and have a bank account in US $, so that money is only “exchanged” once.

Some advice. Avoid AMX their program is basically a fee scam.

The Canadian banks are more transparent and fair, although in spite of my being a 50-year RBC client with a perfect credit history I was treated as if I was a new applicant! They wanted tax returns back 2 years, stock account info, and corporate information. Totally over the top, as if my credit history was irrelevant.My subsequent conversation with the manager was reassuring and his response to my complaint was reassuring. Strong letters to RBC VP and Rbc Visa will follow. 

My recommendation is to get a US card that allows points to be collected and transferred and open a US bank account to avoid repeated gouging regarding exchange rates.


Time for Q and A’s

1)   On a scale from 1to 10 how do you feel.

There are good days and bad. The best days I am 9.5, the worst 8.0. I can usually tell within the first hour of waking. When compared to May, June and July, which I would of scored 6.0, this is really quite good!

2)   What % of your former workload are you able to maintain?

Really unknown, of course, even without my challenges I planned to go to 60% in 2016 anyway.( I am currently at 20%) I still enjoy seeing patients, many of whom have been under my care for 25 years. After my ½ day in the office I generally have a nap, which seems non-negotiable.

3)   How much has your handicap changed this year?
An embarrassing answer, it is up by 7 strokes. I have lost considerable distance but I am working on some new techniques to recapture those yards.

4)   What about the bucket list?

I am quite disciplined with the list. I never really plan outside of 8 weeks in advance. I can tell you it is lengthy but out of necessity we are on fast forward. I am quite proud of the last 11 months, here was what was on the list:

BUCKET LIST 2015-16


Live 12 months                                     April 2016
Donovan’s Birthday                                     check
Hamish’s Birthday                                       check
Baseball in Seattle                                      check
Liam in Portland                                          check
Tesla road trip to Portland                           check
Burnham and Berrow Oct 20-25                                                                                                       check
London Theater Oct 20-30                          check
Catts Birthday                                              check
 Palm Springs late November, early Dec      neg
 Hawaii Dec                                                   neg
 X mas party                                                         check 
 Jan LA       Jan 10-17                                          check 
 Feb Palm Springs   Feb 7-12                       check
Feb – Tofino Feb 21-28 medical issues       neg
 March Phoenix/G Canyon/Liam in Tucson  booked
Bandon Tournament April 15-18 booked     booked

I ‘ve been lucky to get all this in. About an 80%  successful execution rate.

5)   What is your investment philosophy.

Get your own broker …..parasite!

There were a number of practical decisions that had to be made. I am now penniless, houseless and carless. Deborah either owns or co-owns everything. This was all done with expert legal advice to minimize any hardship for the family.

   6) Can you give a layperson-understandable explanation of the glucose-tumor interaction mechanics?

Simply put many tumours, notably lung, pancreatic, bowel and brain take up glucose preferentially, that is outside the usual controls mediated by insulin and glucagon. These tumours force feed themselves, using unrestrained energy from glucose metabolism to speed their division and spread. This phenomenon was recognized close to a century ago by Nobel Prize Laureate, Otto Warburg, and is known as the Warburg effect. Research has shown both in the test tube and in animal experiments poisoning the glucose metabolic pathway ( glycolysis) stops the process and kills the cancer cells. There are now strategies that can be used in humans to apply this science: Vitamin C infusions, intra- arterial infusions of D-pyruvate ( invasive, to date no controlled trials) and ingestion of DCA ( dichloroacetate), again no controlled trials.

   7) If you were to redesign the cancer care system in BC what would the key strengths and elements be? How should it be run? How would patients give input into the design? Is there a role for a mixed public-private hybrid system of care? How do we increase a personalized medicine approach?

Redesign: I am a lowly endocrinologist and patient so will comment on what is obvious. The cancer agency is a silo, It has it’s own budget and really has outgrown the usual administrative checks and balances.

Let’s dwell on the positive, the staff is uniformly pleasant and helpful. Outcomes are competitive with world results.
Legitimate progress is being attempted regarding targeted therapy using genomics.

The unfortunate negatives: Communication with referring MD’s is hopeless, this needs to be addressed urgently. The release of imaging and lab results borders on malpractice.

Paper files still rule, they need to get up to speed with the digital age.

Appointments are done by phone ( that’s ok), but also by mail, ( is that really necessary?)

Patient privacy has been lost, interviews are done in public places, totally unacceptable.

I am a Lee Iacocca fan. Just walking around can give great insights as to how an industry or plant is functioning.You may remember that Chrysler was "dead" in the 80's, Lee turned it around.He went into every management office, and every plant and if he could not understand that person's job by their explanation ( 1  min or less), they were deemed redundant and gone. As I pretend to be Lee in my travels, overstaffing is obvious, this reflects poorly on day to day management decisions.

Public private models for cancer management is not something I support, mainly due to the patient costs that would be potentially incurred.

Within 5 years the first test that one will have after the diagnosis of CA will be genomic which will help target therapy. The age of protocol driven therapy is over.

8) How does Donald Trump do his hair ? Short answer he doesn’t.

In physics his "doo" would be described as Brownian movement.

Defn:  Brownian movement, any of various physical phenomena in which some quantity is constantly undergoing small, random fluctuations.

And so endeth Question Period!

Over the next few days there will be a short blog on Oscar predictions. Stay tuned.

Until next time…